I think I think too much!

Actually, I don't just think it, I KNOW it!?

Ai-yi-yi.

My brain/mind is very very busy.

NOISY.

Sometimes positively unruly.

Geesh!

Almost never really quiet.

Parenthetically, I suspect the "powers that be" don't really want us peasants thinking any too deeply, hmmmmm? Deadly Distraction by Device is likely more what they're after...

Now, with regard to men? We're told when we ask them what they're thinking, & they say "Nothing," that they really mean they aren't thinking anything.

Whoa.

Sure wish I could grab me a little of that action.

Or well, lack of action.

🙂🙂

I've joked to friends for years that there's almost always a party going on inside my head.

It's just ... real busy! ... up there.

Always analyzing. Philosophizing. Planning. Putting 2 & 2 together. Getting inspirations. Insights!

Planning.

Writing stuff. I am always writing stuff inside my head. My published output represents a very small fraction indeed of all the stuff I've written.

& sure.

Sometimes worrying about the people I care about the most. Getting a little bent out of shape over this or that thing, from time to time.

#NotFun

&, fussing over the state of the world sometimes, too (ai-yi-yi once again. What a flaming shit show!?)

Lamenting!

If only human beings had not behaved/are continuing to behave

so colossally stupidly

& short-sightedly

🙁 🙁 🙁

Anyway.

So it's a pretty busy noggin I'm carrying around up there on my shoulders.

It makes me tired.

It's also quite a bit of fun at times, I have to admit!

I remember I was at a party one time - didn't know anybody there - & was just sittin' there on my own. Listening to the party.

The one inside my head, I mean.

My friends finally arrived & remarked that I looked pretty contented sitting there, all by myself.

I replied "I have a rich inner life!"

& we all had a good laugh.

What a thing to say!

But ... I guess it's true.

I guess that party inside my head beats having an empty head.

or one filled with a lot of boring, repetitive thoughts.

Mean thoughts.

Beating-myself-up-all-the-darn-time thoughts.

Anyway...

Don't worry about me!

I get some lovely peaceful interludes sometimes too. 🙂

When I am not feeling anxious (lately I seem to feel anxious more than I used to; do others feel that too? Just the state of the world, maybe??) ...

I DO enjoy the party.

There are certainly worse things in life than lots of philosophizing & constantly writing things inside one's head, after all!

Janet

p.s. this posting feels almost … frivolous? in light of all the really (really) serious shit going on in the world these days/daze. What can I say? I have more “serious” posts in the hopper. I was away for a bit, & my writing has fallen behind. This one was written while I was on a long plane ride, actually.

This Chopin piece always helps still the waters!